“New Beginning”

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keeping them inside me
its killing me...

bottled up

i hate liars
i hate promise breakers

hatred

happy chinese new year ppl!
today went so many ppl hse
dress like office lady oso
bleahs ):
went to collect angbaos!
yipee!i like
but when i reached hme
wth! recession cost me my money
th angbao shrinks like dont know what
lugging best
got 1 dont knw what auntie
from last time $20 can shrink to now $4
argh! felt so sad
lucky my dad still 有意思luhs
nv shrink.but oso nv increase
still tt $50/-
bleahs.at those ppl hse
was so bored )):
sitting ard doing nothing
see my cousin n her boyfriend kissing
bleahs.was super bored.
and all those aunties come by n ask
"whose daughter are you?" in hokkien
argh!im so insignificant
nobody knws who i am.
thn my dad came to my rescue
yay!thanks dad!
thn th aunties will be like
"so tall alrdy.last time i see you was like soooo small"
my poor angbaos... ))):

disappointed

i create this poem thingy
it might nt b good
so many things have happened
n nt according to hw i planned
how i wish evrything was a dream
or a nightmare...

thinking of th so many things that happened,
i felt my life was threatened.
my life raced forward so quickly,i tried to pause,
cause im lost.
i look around me,
all i saw was a dried up sea.
i tried to find my way home,
but all that was left were a few tombs.
th streets there used to be full of life,
now i understand how fast time pass by.
i tried to look for ppl i know,
but there were only unknown faces w eerie glow.
i approached one w a red comb,
and asked her my way home.
she stared at me w eyes so red,
and asked "arent you dead?"
i wondered how long ive been gone,
for my name appears on those big gray ones.
i saw an old man that walks w a limp,
and clothes that arent very clean.
he look at me w empty eyes,
he told me he hope that all these were just some lies.
th sadness behind those eyes,
reached out to me like silent cries.
i asked if he was lost too,
he replied that he was lost for a century or two.
how long have i been gone?
for th sun had dried up that pretty pond.
where are th ppl i recognised,
cause i need to be sympathised.
quietly as darkness envelope me like a dome,
i realised i had no home.

lost

it can be tough to see th silver lining among those thick clouds.
but i will make it happen
i will make th sun shine and th rainbow appear.

trying

我做错了一件事，让我足够后悔一生。

错了

just because of that stupid handbk
make me feel so sad
what calculate L1R5 and L1R2B2
now i feel so...
i calculated my 'PERFECT' score
for L1R5,
i gt 20 points.haha.which JC want to accept me???
LOL
next L1R2B2,
i gt 17 points.hoho.want gt business course but which poly wants me???
bleahs...
my marks are so shitty! :(

vexed

we use to talk abt evrything
from th food we eat
to th things we like
although we dont talk so much now
but i know you still reads my blog
it hurts me to see you like that
after all we were once best friends
i dont know how you feel abt me now
but i still regards you as my close friend
you change so much just cause of 1 person
is it worth it?
i dont knw how you feel abt this relationship
but it feels like those changes were uneccessary
i like you just how you were before
if you still reads my mind like last time
i think you should knw that im refering to you
come to your senses
dont commit th same mistakes again and again
it painful to see you like that
although im nt very sure you will even come to me
but you can call me anytime if you need help

I ♥ YOU!

hurt

I want to thank weizhi and christina for helping and teaching me
how to change my blog skin.
so now i have successfully gotten rid of PINK!
am i glad.
and oh oh.
i'm so proud of myself tt i manage to find and put in th playlist for my blog
with a little help frm weizhi again.
for im nt a tech person.
Im a dinosaur gone wrong.
haha(:
Im certainly impressed with myself,
currently...

i feel sad today
really sad...
i felt that i lost myself all of a sudden
i felt lost
really lost...
hopeless and all.
most of you sll might nt have seen th change in me
but some may have
idk what happened
but i felt really bad
really really bad...
there was something hidden in me for so long
but i could nv bring myself to say it out
or write it out
it was also painful for me just to think of it
pls do not ask me what happen
just leave me alone...

*pop* i popped my party popper
*pop* you popped your party popper
*pop* *pop* we popped our party poppers
why pop party poppers?
cause we CELEBRATING.
celebrating what?
CELEBRATING TH 1 DAY ANNIVERSARY OF TH ESTABLISHMENT OF AB2C!
yipee!
WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS AB2C?
COME AND ASK ME!
but i wouldnt tell you


went for RICE project today
realised whats th meaning of CHEAP!!!
damn it luhs
th 'president' say what must go for more then 3 days thn gt t-shirt
what th fuck!
that is so cheap...
some more i gt th t-shirt le
thn they say only more thn 3 days can gt
i MUST RETURN th shirt
that is even more CHEAP,FUCKERS!
thn i still realise that gt ppl go for 2 days or less gt th shirt
what th HELL
they knw NEED return shirt so they nv cme out report
somemore gt this person
say you all must understand
so anyone unhappy wants to complain?
i want to tell that person,
EH!DEY.COMPLAIN LIAO I CAN TAKE BACK MY SHIRT IS IT
anyway... ...
BIG deal arh?
t-shirt only mah!
最多i go make another t-shirt myself luhs
IDIOT!
i make BIG BIG slogan luhs
i hate CHEAP STUFFS,PEOPLE,AND EVRYTHING
CAUSE THEY HAVE NO GUARANTEE/WARRANTY...
if it wasnt for th needy n helping ppl
i wouldnt even bother to wake up so early just for that project n meet this TYPE of ppl...

first post in this new year
hoho(:
im going to be smarter
like thats ever going to happen
LOL...
but i realise im stronger now
nt that strong but that strong
ya you knw
in each and every people i knw
i guess my image in your eyes are:
-CRAZY
-RETARDED
-POSITIVE
-HIGH
but thats nt th real me i guess
that was th image i put up
but that is th image i want to uphold
i will try to be th siying that i want to be...